It is what it is....

The Girlies & I are leaving for Maine in two days. I am still tying up all the graduation loose ends... when I was so crazy busy with the planning of the graduation I kept telling myself that as soon as it was over I'd be able to rest... Alas I am way more busy now... We are flying up and I am staying two and a half weeks then leaving the Girlies there to come back for a few days to help the Axeman move us. I am trying to pack and visit with people, but goodbyes are getting to me. I want to see everyone, but I am so busy and my emotions are on edge... It is what it is....

I want to be sharing the graduation with you right now, but I don't have time to upload and edit pictures. Not only that, but I still haven't had time to process how I feel about my first born graduating. I homeschooled her for ten of her 12+ years of education.... I was a daily part of this process, and I feel like the stress over my Mother's situation has over-shadowed this special time. I am ashamed to admit it, but I am angry with her for taking this special time from me and my family. I know she had no control over her illness (or little anyhow) but I am angry all the same.... It is what it is...

She doesn't get it... She thinks I should be excited.... I am saying goodbye to friends, and leaving things I love.... I helped start a homeschool teen group here and I love those kids... They are one of the great joys in my life... Other moms are stepping up to keep things going, and this gives me great joy. That being said, I don't want to say goodbye to these kiddos... I am not excited about this move. Don't get me wrong, I am not resentful, but I am not excited... I may need an attitude adjustment, but I don't want one... I want to be happy for Cate... to savior the excitement of this moment... this achievement of both of ours... Instead I am sad... It is what it is...

Here is a couple peeks at Cate's big day....

(Photo: Rose Zepeda)

Here she is just before marching in...

See how happy she is....

(Photo: Laura Allen)

Here is the crowd just before... Pretty good turnout for five graduates...

(Photo: Missy Holyrod)

I am reading a letter we wrote to Cate just before the Axeman & I give her the diploma.

(Photo: Rose Zepeda)

Here is her Senior Portrait...

Below are the pictures we used on her announcement...

(Photos: Rese Zepeda)

Her origional photo date was scheduled during our emergency visit to Maine in April... We rescheduled it for May 1st... The day of the flood.... (Aghhhhh.....) So she ended up getting these taken the last Thursday... Yes, two day before graduation... Our photographer went home and started editing and had the portrait ready foe me to put in the bulletin later that day... She was amazing... Poor Cate... It was like 90 degrees and really humid, but I still think they turned out beautiful.

Oh... and Sparky had a formal "Sweet 16" party Friday night, so I had to alter a dress for her... I have some fun pictures of her in it, but for now here is a peek if her with the birthday girl...

Oh... she got a new haircut too...

Cute huh?

Thanks for listening,