We had wonderful worship yesterday at church and many tears shed for the loss in our church family... Both seemed to help some. That being said, I titled this post today, and today I am in an emotional "no mans land"... (Does the punctuation go inside or outside the quotation marks? I can't remember...) Anyhow...
Today... Is gray and rainy... Isn't it weird when the weather matches our moods? It would be wrong somehow for the sun to be out...
Today... I miss my sweet kitty Otis... Our home seems empty... I long for his soft fur, his cuddles, his loud purr... his comfort...
Today... I have to spend all day preparing and baking for tomorrow's memorial service and reception... I am full up of grief... My own and others... I can't fit anymore in... I just need to get to the other side of tomorrow's memorial service....
Today... I just want to curl up on the couch and watch old movies but I can't...
Today... I have only worshipful music playing because I need it... Like a life raft... to get to the other side of today.
Today... My to do list is too long... and I'm a quart low on energy...
Today... I am putting everything on pause to pray until I find some joy...
Today... I am starting by counting my blessings...
Today... They are vast...
Today... I just might be ok...
Thank you for listening,
PS... The process of typing this really did help me find a glimmer of joy... As I am finishing the sun is literally starting to peek through the clouds... Weird, huh?
Thinking of you and your daughter and friends...glad you found that glimmer.
ReplyDeleteOh Rebecca, my heart goes out to you, and my prayers for you. Praying for peace and rest and comfort.
ReplyDeleteJulie
PS Winston Churchill said, "When you're going through hell, keep going."